April 5, 2011 269 Hanging in There Even Tho Being Stuck In Place

April 5, 2011  269   Renewing My Commitment

Just spent a week with the family and was not counting calories.  However did a lot more moving around, climbing stairs daily and walking the LONG concourses at the airports.  The scale on my first morning back showed a 4 pound loss from the morning I left at which was 271.  Time to get serious especially about portion control.  Have to be careful about feeling deprived or allowing myself to get TOO HUNGRY.  Found the big hunger feelings make me want to throw all control to the wind.

Even though I have been overweight since I was 7 years old, I didn't start thinking about food all the time until I was married and had children and was responsible for feeding everyone and in fact had to think about what was I going to fix for dinner, even before having breakfast.  WOW  Didn't think about THAT until right now.  I never have been a "taster" but evidently after taking care of everybody else's needs and being required to do WHAT I DON'T WANT TO DO    I "treat" myself once I have taken care of business.  Other responsibilities lead to me NEEDING and CRAVING carbs.  If I eat enough and have carbs included, it seems I can make it through the next hours without thinking about food.  Even a LITTLE hunger feeling (and I mean barely a twinge that is not even consciously discernable) will start me searching for something to eat, and it won't be broccoli.

Read a very good book called "I Want" by Jane Velez-Mitchell.  Many insights that apply to me and made me realize that an addictive personality is obviously what I have.  I think it's hilarious how now that they have done testing on normal weight and overweight people, where they had their brain wired, saw that when they showed a malted milk drink to them.....  the overweight had the same portion of their brain light up just as drug addicts do when shown drugs.  The normal weight brain didn't change.  DUH  We've been telling people for years that our response to food is different than.....  That confirms the fact that we have to work our good choices DAILY.  Be on top of it ONE DAY AT A TIME!  We can do this gang!
 Never give up!