Wednesday, September 14, 2011
9/14/11 SO FAR - SO GOOD
9/14/11 Didn't get done what I thought I would today outside of good food choices. THAT deserves much appreciation by me for me. Just need to make it through the night continuing good food choices. These are my hard hours. Will have to be super vigilant for the rest of my life. Hope to be ready for the treadmill and exercise soon to increase my stamina and overall health. The things needing doing around the house will wait till I get those two elements in place. Food, exercise and regular living maintenance chores - - getting to those extra jobs (like painting the woodwork) after all that is in place. On to success.
PERCEIVING FAILURE
9/14/11 WT: 271.4 FEELING LIKE A FAILURE
The numbers on the scale we are told over and over, to not let them affect us. Today I can't believe that I'm back in the 70's. Well, I can believe it because my food choices have been poor and seem consistently to start that way each day after 3:00 P.M. Today I will be more vigilant and also get some movement into my day. Just read ~
Failure is the opportunity to begin again more intelligently. Henry Ford
Today is the day I do that and I am choosing Wednesday to be my weigh in day. Once a week after this, not every day. Although it helps me squelch or at least be aware of the behavior that is causing the consequence, the down side of that is not worth it. For now anyway, I am weighing once a week.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
To The Grindstone
September 8, 2011
WT: 267.2
Not only does every step, every day counts...... but every hour. Jillian Michaels said to set a clock for every hour through the day. Stop and think each hour about what you are doing - if you are happy about what you are doing, fine. If not, site correction is needed. Sounds like a good idea. Hourly check to see if I am in line with what I want. Sure am aiming at getting into the "50's" and down from there. Once I break out of the 60's will set my next goal.
WT: 267.2
Not only does every step, every day counts...... but every hour. Jillian Michaels said to set a clock for every hour through the day. Stop and think each hour about what you are doing - if you are happy about what you are doing, fine. If not, site correction is needed. Sounds like a good idea. Hourly check to see if I am in line with what I want. Sure am aiming at getting into the "50's" and down from there. Once I break out of the 60's will set my next goal.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Back to Super Serious Mode
September 7, 2011 TOO LONG PLAYING - TIME TO BE SERIOUS
Been gone too long from a daily accounting. The journey was too filled with looking back at accomplishments. Time to look ahead. Have to remember we are only as good as our very last ballgame, and what we are willing to do NOW. Baby steps, baby steps, baby steps - will lead to a quantum leap. DAILY activity counts a lot. Have so often figured "this one time won't count" and it counts a lot! It could open the door to throwing in the towel completely. If not quite that bad, because it seems I come down on myself over and over because of my weight, it can lead to other "just this time"-s. I undo any good I might have done with calorie control All that emphasis by me on my weight, has had the opposite effect of what I wanted to accomplish! Lose weight and keep it off. I keep turning to things I LOVE the taste of, even though I'm not hungry. The "super control" of eating what I know I SHOULD not be eating, undoes any calorie control I did over days before. Guess I have to look at exactly what is it I REALLY want to accomplish. Is it to make myself feel happy? I have been wanting to eat all day today... partly a little hunger but even in between I want something good to eat! Maybe I need to make sure I make a good meal every day because otherwise it adds up and I find it too hard to resist those "ATTACKS" that seem to happen at least once a week. Perhaps if I got enough glucose in every day, this would level that out. THAT and starting to move more. There are people that feel they HAVE to move to feel good. Once I START moving I know I feel better, and can keep at it daily. TWO important social phone calls a week. Need to have at least ONE social engagement per week. This will eliminate stress and depression. You can put your heart back in your hands!
I CAN DO THIS!
Been gone too long from a daily accounting. The journey was too filled with looking back at accomplishments. Time to look ahead. Have to remember we are only as good as our very last ballgame, and what we are willing to do NOW. Baby steps, baby steps, baby steps - will lead to a quantum leap. DAILY activity counts a lot. Have so often figured "this one time won't count" and it counts a lot! It could open the door to throwing in the towel completely. If not quite that bad, because it seems I come down on myself over and over because of my weight, it can lead to other "just this time"-s. I undo any good I might have done with calorie control All that emphasis by me on my weight, has had the opposite effect of what I wanted to accomplish! Lose weight and keep it off. I keep turning to things I LOVE the taste of, even though I'm not hungry. The "super control" of eating what I know I SHOULD not be eating, undoes any calorie control I did over days before. Guess I have to look at exactly what is it I REALLY want to accomplish. Is it to make myself feel happy? I have been wanting to eat all day today... partly a little hunger but even in between I want something good to eat! Maybe I need to make sure I make a good meal every day because otherwise it adds up and I find it too hard to resist those "ATTACKS" that seem to happen at least once a week. Perhaps if I got enough glucose in every day, this would level that out. THAT and starting to move more. There are people that feel they HAVE to move to feel good. Once I START moving I know I feel better, and can keep at it daily. TWO important social phone calls a week. Need to have at least ONE social engagement per week. This will eliminate stress and depression. You can put your heart back in your hands!
I CAN DO THIS!
Friday, April 22, 2011
April 22, 2011 CREATING A PERMANENT HEALTHY LIFESTYLE
April 22, 2011 WT. 270 New Permanent Healthy Lifestyle
Can't believe I haven't been here for as long as it's been. Does this indicate where my attitude has been? Have to admit that my weight has been stuck.
Joined SparkPeople again yesterday and intend for that to be a daily check up. I have great hopes. Not living on hope alone though. Am ready to be very "present" in my food choices.
A big trick is to retain whatever we have accomplished. That is going to be the larger challenge. Been checking on my daily frustrations and realize there are even VERY SMALL things that add to the total of a sneaking up kind of food binge. It isn't necessarily one big trigger. That was new information for me. Paying attention to the slight upset of getting a phone call when it disturbs what you are doing. Wow! That was surprising. Phew.
Enough to digest for today.
Nancy
Can't believe I haven't been here for as long as it's been. Does this indicate where my attitude has been? Have to admit that my weight has been stuck.
Joined SparkPeople again yesterday and intend for that to be a daily check up. I have great hopes. Not living on hope alone though. Am ready to be very "present" in my food choices.
A big trick is to retain whatever we have accomplished. That is going to be the larger challenge. Been checking on my daily frustrations and realize there are even VERY SMALL things that add to the total of a sneaking up kind of food binge. It isn't necessarily one big trigger. That was new information for me. Paying attention to the slight upset of getting a phone call when it disturbs what you are doing. Wow! That was surprising. Phew.
Enough to digest for today.
Nancy
Sunday, April 10, 2011
APRIL 10, 2011 WT. 270 TIME TO RESET
April 10, 2011 270 Time to Reset
Worked so hard to lose those last 10 pounds and now put them back on this last week. Have to be careful of our thinking. There is a tendency to think "aha, this time I've got the good food choices completely under control." It's the disease of being addicted to food. Hard to admit that but I guess food is my drug of choice to cover feelings I don't like. Now all I need to do is figure out what those feelings are and try to feel them instead of stuffing them. That's the only way this weight will come off and STAY off. Phew.
I spent the whole week mainly being a couch potato and catching up on recorded programs from the 11 days I was gone. Eating all my meals of course, even though not hungry and doing nothing to burn off those food calories. There is plenty to do around here but evidently the work isn't high on my list. LOL Need to discipline myself better and get a system going in the upcoming future. I was asking for the weight gain with all the eating and sitting around. I knew that even as it was going on but didn't change it. It will be different this coming week. Somehow I interpreted it quietly at some point, as a treat, as a deserved reward for accomplishing all I did. Stinkin thinkin. Has to change.
New day a comin'
Worked so hard to lose those last 10 pounds and now put them back on this last week. Have to be careful of our thinking. There is a tendency to think "aha, this time I've got the good food choices completely under control." It's the disease of being addicted to food. Hard to admit that but I guess food is my drug of choice to cover feelings I don't like. Now all I need to do is figure out what those feelings are and try to feel them instead of stuffing them. That's the only way this weight will come off and STAY off. Phew.
I spent the whole week mainly being a couch potato and catching up on recorded programs from the 11 days I was gone. Eating all my meals of course, even though not hungry and doing nothing to burn off those food calories. There is plenty to do around here but evidently the work isn't high on my list. LOL Need to discipline myself better and get a system going in the upcoming future. I was asking for the weight gain with all the eating and sitting around. I knew that even as it was going on but didn't change it. It will be different this coming week. Somehow I interpreted it quietly at some point, as a treat, as a deserved reward for accomplishing all I did. Stinkin thinkin. Has to change.
New day a comin'
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
April 5, 2011 269 Hanging in There Even Tho Being Stuck In Place
April 5, 2011 269 Renewing My Commitment
Just spent a week with the family and was not counting calories. However did a lot more moving around, climbing stairs daily and walking the LONG concourses at the airports. The scale on my first morning back showed a 4 pound loss from the morning I left at which was 271. Time to get serious especially about portion control. Have to be careful about feeling deprived or allowing myself to get TOO HUNGRY. Found the big hunger feelings make me want to throw all control to the wind.
Even though I have been overweight since I was 7 years old, I didn't start thinking about food all the time until I was married and had children and was responsible for feeding everyone and in fact had to think about what was I going to fix for dinner, even before having breakfast. WOW Didn't think about THAT until right now. I never have been a "taster" but evidently after taking care of everybody else's needs and being required to do WHAT I DON'T WANT TO DO I "treat" myself once I have taken care of business. Other responsibilities lead to me NEEDING and CRAVING carbs. If I eat enough and have carbs included, it seems I can make it through the next hours without thinking about food. Even a LITTLE hunger feeling (and I mean barely a twinge that is not even consciously discernable) will start me searching for something to eat, and it won't be broccoli.
Read a very good book called "I Want" by Jane Velez-Mitchell. Many insights that apply to me and made me realize that an addictive personality is obviously what I have. I think it's hilarious how now that they have done testing on normal weight and overweight people, where they had their brain wired, saw that when they showed a malted milk drink to them..... the overweight had the same portion of their brain light up just as drug addicts do when shown drugs. The normal weight brain didn't change. DUH We've been telling people for years that our response to food is different than..... That confirms the fact that we have to work our good choices DAILY. Be on top of it ONE DAY AT A TIME! We can do this gang!
Never give up!
Just spent a week with the family and was not counting calories. However did a lot more moving around, climbing stairs daily and walking the LONG concourses at the airports. The scale on my first morning back showed a 4 pound loss from the morning I left at which was 271. Time to get serious especially about portion control. Have to be careful about feeling deprived or allowing myself to get TOO HUNGRY. Found the big hunger feelings make me want to throw all control to the wind.
Even though I have been overweight since I was 7 years old, I didn't start thinking about food all the time until I was married and had children and was responsible for feeding everyone and in fact had to think about what was I going to fix for dinner, even before having breakfast. WOW Didn't think about THAT until right now. I never have been a "taster" but evidently after taking care of everybody else's needs and being required to do WHAT I DON'T WANT TO DO I "treat" myself once I have taken care of business. Other responsibilities lead to me NEEDING and CRAVING carbs. If I eat enough and have carbs included, it seems I can make it through the next hours without thinking about food. Even a LITTLE hunger feeling (and I mean barely a twinge that is not even consciously discernable) will start me searching for something to eat, and it won't be broccoli.
Read a very good book called "I Want" by Jane Velez-Mitchell. Many insights that apply to me and made me realize that an addictive personality is obviously what I have. I think it's hilarious how now that they have done testing on normal weight and overweight people, where they had their brain wired, saw that when they showed a malted milk drink to them..... the overweight had the same portion of their brain light up just as drug addicts do when shown drugs. The normal weight brain didn't change. DUH We've been telling people for years that our response to food is different than..... That confirms the fact that we have to work our good choices DAILY. Be on top of it ONE DAY AT A TIME! We can do this gang!
Never give up!
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