April 22, 2011 WT. 270 New Permanent Healthy Lifestyle
Can't believe I haven't been here for as long as it's been. Does this indicate where my attitude has been? Have to admit that my weight has been stuck.
Joined SparkPeople again yesterday and intend for that to be a daily check up. I have great hopes. Not living on hope alone though. Am ready to be very "present" in my food choices.
A big trick is to retain whatever we have accomplished. That is going to be the larger challenge. Been checking on my daily frustrations and realize there are even VERY SMALL things that add to the total of a sneaking up kind of food binge. It isn't necessarily one big trigger. That was new information for me. Paying attention to the slight upset of getting a phone call when it disturbs what you are doing. Wow! That was surprising. Phew.
Enough to digest for today.
Nancy
Friday, April 22, 2011
Sunday, April 10, 2011
APRIL 10, 2011 WT. 270 TIME TO RESET
April 10, 2011 270 Time to Reset
Worked so hard to lose those last 10 pounds and now put them back on this last week. Have to be careful of our thinking. There is a tendency to think "aha, this time I've got the good food choices completely under control." It's the disease of being addicted to food. Hard to admit that but I guess food is my drug of choice to cover feelings I don't like. Now all I need to do is figure out what those feelings are and try to feel them instead of stuffing them. That's the only way this weight will come off and STAY off. Phew.
I spent the whole week mainly being a couch potato and catching up on recorded programs from the 11 days I was gone. Eating all my meals of course, even though not hungry and doing nothing to burn off those food calories. There is plenty to do around here but evidently the work isn't high on my list. LOL Need to discipline myself better and get a system going in the upcoming future. I was asking for the weight gain with all the eating and sitting around. I knew that even as it was going on but didn't change it. It will be different this coming week. Somehow I interpreted it quietly at some point, as a treat, as a deserved reward for accomplishing all I did. Stinkin thinkin. Has to change.
New day a comin'
Worked so hard to lose those last 10 pounds and now put them back on this last week. Have to be careful of our thinking. There is a tendency to think "aha, this time I've got the good food choices completely under control." It's the disease of being addicted to food. Hard to admit that but I guess food is my drug of choice to cover feelings I don't like. Now all I need to do is figure out what those feelings are and try to feel them instead of stuffing them. That's the only way this weight will come off and STAY off. Phew.
I spent the whole week mainly being a couch potato and catching up on recorded programs from the 11 days I was gone. Eating all my meals of course, even though not hungry and doing nothing to burn off those food calories. There is plenty to do around here but evidently the work isn't high on my list. LOL Need to discipline myself better and get a system going in the upcoming future. I was asking for the weight gain with all the eating and sitting around. I knew that even as it was going on but didn't change it. It will be different this coming week. Somehow I interpreted it quietly at some point, as a treat, as a deserved reward for accomplishing all I did. Stinkin thinkin. Has to change.
New day a comin'
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
April 5, 2011 269 Hanging in There Even Tho Being Stuck In Place
April 5, 2011 269 Renewing My Commitment
Just spent a week with the family and was not counting calories. However did a lot more moving around, climbing stairs daily and walking the LONG concourses at the airports. The scale on my first morning back showed a 4 pound loss from the morning I left at which was 271. Time to get serious especially about portion control. Have to be careful about feeling deprived or allowing myself to get TOO HUNGRY. Found the big hunger feelings make me want to throw all control to the wind.
Even though I have been overweight since I was 7 years old, I didn't start thinking about food all the time until I was married and had children and was responsible for feeding everyone and in fact had to think about what was I going to fix for dinner, even before having breakfast. WOW Didn't think about THAT until right now. I never have been a "taster" but evidently after taking care of everybody else's needs and being required to do WHAT I DON'T WANT TO DO I "treat" myself once I have taken care of business. Other responsibilities lead to me NEEDING and CRAVING carbs. If I eat enough and have carbs included, it seems I can make it through the next hours without thinking about food. Even a LITTLE hunger feeling (and I mean barely a twinge that is not even consciously discernable) will start me searching for something to eat, and it won't be broccoli.
Read a very good book called "I Want" by Jane Velez-Mitchell. Many insights that apply to me and made me realize that an addictive personality is obviously what I have. I think it's hilarious how now that they have done testing on normal weight and overweight people, where they had their brain wired, saw that when they showed a malted milk drink to them..... the overweight had the same portion of their brain light up just as drug addicts do when shown drugs. The normal weight brain didn't change. DUH We've been telling people for years that our response to food is different than..... That confirms the fact that we have to work our good choices DAILY. Be on top of it ONE DAY AT A TIME! We can do this gang!
Never give up!
Just spent a week with the family and was not counting calories. However did a lot more moving around, climbing stairs daily and walking the LONG concourses at the airports. The scale on my first morning back showed a 4 pound loss from the morning I left at which was 271. Time to get serious especially about portion control. Have to be careful about feeling deprived or allowing myself to get TOO HUNGRY. Found the big hunger feelings make me want to throw all control to the wind.
Even though I have been overweight since I was 7 years old, I didn't start thinking about food all the time until I was married and had children and was responsible for feeding everyone and in fact had to think about what was I going to fix for dinner, even before having breakfast. WOW Didn't think about THAT until right now. I never have been a "taster" but evidently after taking care of everybody else's needs and being required to do WHAT I DON'T WANT TO DO I "treat" myself once I have taken care of business. Other responsibilities lead to me NEEDING and CRAVING carbs. If I eat enough and have carbs included, it seems I can make it through the next hours without thinking about food. Even a LITTLE hunger feeling (and I mean barely a twinge that is not even consciously discernable) will start me searching for something to eat, and it won't be broccoli.
Read a very good book called "I Want" by Jane Velez-Mitchell. Many insights that apply to me and made me realize that an addictive personality is obviously what I have. I think it's hilarious how now that they have done testing on normal weight and overweight people, where they had their brain wired, saw that when they showed a malted milk drink to them..... the overweight had the same portion of their brain light up just as drug addicts do when shown drugs. The normal weight brain didn't change. DUH We've been telling people for years that our response to food is different than..... That confirms the fact that we have to work our good choices DAILY. Be on top of it ONE DAY AT A TIME! We can do this gang!
Never give up!
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